Crossroads
Nov 22nd, 2005 by lisa
I’ve determined that one of my problems is that I have been trying to find someone to follow. I keep looking for Leaders to take care of everything and give me all the Answers. This, I believe, has been a primary source of my troubles. No more Leaders. No more Following.
Of course, if I decide that I will no longer seek a leader, I must lead myself. So here I stand, with compass, map and sturdy shoes at a strange crossroads. The compass is spinning and the map is in a language I don’t quite understand. About the only thing I can trust is my sturdy shoes, but the soles may wear down and the laces break. Do I stand here forever hesitating? Which path do I take? They all look different but are equally appealing. Do I forge a new path? Which direction?
I can see why some people withdraw altogether from life, and sit in a room with the teevee going all day long so they don’t have to think. Mindless job, mindless home life, ‘reality’ shows on the box so you don’t have to think you’re missing out on anything.
No.
So, I’ll take a deep breath and look up into the blue sky. Without knowing what’s ahead, how can I possibly make an intelligent decision about my direction? I must simply take the first step and hope I am prepared for what lies ahead. Or maybe preparation is not the key. Maybe it’s simply being willing, maybe it’s a matter of practicing the Art of Acceptance. That’s something I’ve been meaning to write about, at least make some notes anyway. So maybe I should put away the useless compass and indecipherable map and bring out a notebook and pen.
If there are any answers, I will have to find them for myself.
