Chasing Serenity
May 30th, 2006 by lisa
It never really occurs to me how much I take technology for granted until the technology doesn’t work. Today, at the library, we had a complete and utter meltdown of our computer system. The entire network was simply not responding. We had no access to our system at the desk and there was no internet access for us or the public computers. This started the moment I arrived at work today - around 8:45a.m. - and at this time they are still trying to determine where the problem lies.
We were checking books out by hand - that is, writing all the little numbers down on sheets of paper. We also used a caching system that will later have to be uploaded to the network. Most of our patrons were, as always, very patient and understanding. But there are always a few who simply refuse to accept the fact that life isn’t always convenient for them (let alone us) and only make the situation even more unpleasant.
It was difficult today to maintain a positive, calm outlook on life. It was non-stop movement, non-stop talking, non-stop thinking and the phone never stopped ringing. It was challenging for everyone, and I was dismayed at my own lack of emotional control. I’m always the first to say “don’t worry, it’ll be okay” when there’s any kind of crisis. But plunk me down in the middle of a crisis and I eat my words - with mustard.
It’s a good test, when you face this kind of stress. You find out how you really react when things go wrong. I think I did okay, but I did not pass the test. I have been frazzled and cranky all day. It’s only now, as I sit here in the comfort of my home with a glass of wine in the peace and quiet that I am finally beginning to feel serene again.
That kind of control in the face of chaos is still a goal at this point. I will continue to strive for it, and hopefully will one day be able to remain calm in the midst of the storm. But for today, I will settle for a glass of chardonnay and skritching my kitty behind her ears and find my peace there. Tomorrow I will work on facing the demons again, as I don’t think the technology will working properly yet.
That is the trick, isn’t it. Its easy to remain calm when nothing is happening. Its the people who remain calm under fire who are truly enviable. You’ll get there. you just need many many many more stressful days so you can practice
Shopping malls affect me that way. All the advertising screams at you, there are long lines at the cash registers and none of the clerks are helpful. I generally leave without spending anything.
I haven’t seen the blog in a while. I like the changes, and I’m glad to hear that you and Paul are doing well.
later,
Jack
Jack!
I’ve been wondering about you. It’s so good to hear from you again. Thanks for stopping by.