Turn It Sideways
Jun 25th, 2006 by lisa
As Nanny Ogg says, tempers fuggit. What she means is, time flies.
I feel stretched thin. I feel as though I’m running on a conveyor belt, going fast but getting nowhere. To say I’ve been busy would be putting it mildly. But busy doing what? To be honest, I can’t really say. This weekend has flown by and I feel as though I’ve accomplished nothing.
I think of Death’s house in the Pratchett novels, in the room with all the hourglasses… the soft hiss of the sand running through them. Can I just turn mine sideways for a bit?
The natural reaction to this feeling is to try and do more… to squeeze more activitiy into smaller and smaller spaces. That way lies madness. Or, at the very least, a bad headache.
But I’ve had an epiphany. (Okay, maybe that’s too big a word for the realization I’ve had, but I like the way it sounds. Anyway… ) I’ve realized that lately, while I’ve been accomplishing ‘nothing’ I’ve not spent time doing anything I truly love. I have not made any jewelry, I’ve not written anything of consequence, I’ve not learned to knit (a come-lately desire), I have not sewn, I have not baked cookies. I don’t think I need to do more ’sensible and important’ things. I think I need to do more things that feed my soul.
This weekend I mostly rested. I didn’t work on the business website, I didn’t work on eBay, and I didn’t vacuum my house. I did, however, have a nice soak in a hot tub and I did read a lot. I feel much better. Maybe I can tackle some ‘important’ things tomorrow. But I am going to plan my time to include some creative activities too. I need them. I don’t feel well without them.
So, exactly why are you feeling guilty about actually relaxing for the weekend? It sounds like it was therapeutic, except for the guilt part afterwards lol
J
Oh I don’t feel a bit guilty. In fact, I feel quite determined to relax and create more.
I think thats a good lesson for anyone. We’re so focused on doing more, that maybe we should focus on doing more “want tos” and less “have tos”.