Chasing Grace

It’s been an adjustment, suddenly going from employment to unemployment without any warning. I still find myself reeling and wondering when I’ll ‘get over it’. I just want to get on with my life, but the dust seems to still be settling and I’m at a loss to make it settle any faster.

One of the silver linings in my current situation is having more control over my time. I have regained the time and the strength to reach for Spirit. I’ve been able to spend my mornings in quiet meditation. I meditate on things as they are, and things as I’d like them to be. I look for patterns to show me what’s going on that I may have overlooked before now. In a busy life, it’s easy to miss important things that are right in front of you. Now that I have the time to do so, I am beginning to see things more clearly again.

Of course, sometimes I simply sit quietly doing nothing. Sometimes you just need to slow down, and Pay Attention.

As I continue to spend time working in my home, learning new skills and creating my art, I find myself relying more on my heart, and less on my mind… more on my feelings and less on my thoughts. That’s probably a good thing, as my thoughts tend to be troubling, being the worrier that I am. When I am stressed, I worry more than usual. Now that the external stress is gone from my life, I can start working on eliminating the internal stress… the imagined troubles I create in my own mind. Once I’ve learned to tune that out, it will become that much easier to reach the Spirit in my life for which I am always striving.