Avoiding Myself
Oct 18th, 2007 by lisa
Do you ever just get sick of yourself? Some days, do you just wish you were somebody else? Not anyone specific, just not you.
I’ve been trying to avoid myself all day. But unless I’m sleeping (and I can’t sleep all day, as appealing as that may seem) I find it difficult to avoid myself.
Everywhere I go, there I am.
Supposedly the way to find happiness is to look within, but I don’t always like my ‘within’. Some days I want to throw things at the mirror. I want to turn around and walk out on myself.
I guess I’m stuck with me, aren’t I?
Darn.
Indeed I do! Sometimes, I’m so cranky, I don’t even want to be with me. When I get that way I look for ways to let it out. I’ll talk to others about my crankiness or I’ll write about it.
I know we’re all different, that’s the magic of people. The times I become incredibly bored with myself or restless are when I spend too much time alone. I’m good for about two days on my own and then I start getting too introspective and solitary.
So I guess what I’m saying is, shake it up! Don’t go to bed, get out of the house. Call a friend, go for coffee, find something to do with someone you like.
If I were closer, I’d get you out of the house!!!
Very good advice.
I do spend far too much time with myself. I feel stuck in this place some days. It’s funny, because I love being at home, but too much time at home can be depressing. Sometimes you just have to get out of the house.
I’m just the opposite—the times I can’t stand myself are the times when I’ve been away from home too long, had to spend too much time with other people. (In person, I mean. . . ) Apparently I need a *lot* of solitary time.
But really, getting out of the house is probably the best advice.